JJ... I understand, its been almost 10 months... I am moving on... but it still hurts...Just a few weeks ago, he was trying to get me to see him a few times a week to see if we still had a future... I was not really jumping for joy when i heard this... I met a nice nice guy, so I have been dating again..It threw me for a loop,,, you know... for a moment I could imagine a happy ending after all..... but my heart was saying NO.. please not again... I cant do this anymore... so there was a torn feeling... Now I feel just disgusted... disgusted with myself... who the F*ck is this person I gave my heart to 8 years ago????????? Am I really that stupid? How can I trust myself again? My head is hurting just from trying to wrap my head around this all.... WTF?????