Yesterday was ok . I had. Good chat with my friend/ sadly this was mostly about my current situation, which I hadn't intended but there you go. 
The movie was really good. Very inspirational, I headed straight over to my other friend's flat to get ready for the ceilidh. The ceilidh was ok, but I thought about my husband A LOT.
this morning I have woken up panicky and with fast, stressed breaths. I feel shaky and overwhelmed! Trying to acknowledge these feelings because I don't want to suppress everything and be hit with all of the hard realisations later!! 
Nothing takes the pain away!!!