Trying to Hope, it sounds like you're doing really well so don't be hard on yourself for feeling up then down. It's definitely a rollercoaster, and hopefully you'll feel more 'up' than down as time passes. It's a good idea to do what you're doing and just let yourself 'feel' the bad bits, it's healthier than bottling it up or trying to ignore and hurry past it. Unfortunately it's very painful when you're in the middle of those feelings, but the will pass (for a while at least!)

I found myself in a similar situation yesterday. I was out all day with a group of friends (what was that crazy snow like in the morning!) and had a great time. However, shockingly, 2 of my other friends have also gone through this/are going through this. So we were a little separate from the rest of the group for a while as we all talked and talked about our situations. It had been my intention not to talk about all this at all, but it's too tempting when you can swap stories with others who can relate! At the moment my DSO and I are still together, so my anxiety started shooting up when I realised I'd been out for hours and would be heading home soon. I never know what I'm coming in to. Sure enough he barely interacted with me last night, barely spoke to me. Horrible coming home to someone who doesn't even ask where you've been. Not an easy life at all.