Oh bluecar,

If we only had a crystal ball to see the end game - to be sure the decisions we make are the right ones. Something inside you is telling you that this is right for you. Perhaps, if he agrees to parameters, to boundaries, to getting the right help, you can take a wait in see. Maybe it is not time - maybe it never will be. but for now, you are making the smart decision - you have no guilt in this.

You did not fail fallout - I think you may have begun to pass through it - but not yet, as you ache. So we are here with our support and love.