Oh Ellen, I am so sorry about this. I hear you.

I too have been wondering - are there really any normal people? My close friends have all confided depression to me! And I'm counting 4 women my age. They aren't clinically depressed but just depressed. What's happening to the world? In the office I find myself looking at people carefully and wondering if they are secretly depressed. And then I ask myself if *I* am depressed by any chance! -- I am never in a mood for just fun, which means I might be going through some situational depression.