Thanks for the reply! He lives out in a very remote area - at least an hour from the nearest town, and he has to stay onsite for work, so getting to a doctor isn't the easiest. But I completely agree that he does need professional help, so I hope he's at least sought out some books/apps and whatever resources are available. It's so hard to live with the silence under the "I don't know what to do about us. I have a lot to go over in my mind and time to figure out what is best for long term". I tend to be a pretty controlling person, which I am working on for myself, and I want to fix everything but I know with this I can't. It's so hard to not drive myself crazy making assumptions about his silence and what he may be thinking. I am scared to hope that he'll decide to try to be together again, and I'm equally scared not to hope for that. I'm not ready to give up on him but it's SO hard to leave him alone and not worry that he's forgotten me already...