Hi Ellen, Thanks for the solid assessment of my situation. I feel like some kind of crazy woman. I'm doing my work and taking care of my family and all the while I'm writing imaginary texts and emails to him in my head. It's like I'm constantly playing a "what if I said this?" kind of game.

It's like he wants me and doesn't want me all at once and because he doesn't solidly want me, I can't accurately assess whether I really want him. Or whether it would ever work anyway.

If I give him space, will he forget all about me? Will he come back? If I only knew.

But, being the daily support and swallowing my own pain from our relationship is becoming unbearable. I know he can't deal with what happened because his depression is a fullblown mess right now, but it's impossible to continue waiting and wondering whether he will, someday be able to deal with it.