Great plan to look for a job and become financially independent. And it's also good you're seeing a counselor for yourself as this is not an easy time.

What else can you do for yourself? Do you have hobbies or some things you'd like to try? They will help take your mind off things, and hey you might find something you're really passionate about. Don't let your life become all depression all the time. Of course with toddlers you have less time for yourself...but maybe even just taking them somewhere and doing stuff with them. Focus on you and the kids.