HI Hope4thefuture

you are truly and inspiration. You have stood by your husband on an enormous journey and I just think you are amazing.

You have shown your children what commitment really means and you have been strong beyond measure. These are enormous values and I am sure in time your children will see this and be so appreciative.

It is clear that your husband has suffered a long time with depression, but this is also something we struggle with and share. It is the point of separation that they make in destoying relationships. It seems that you have survived this a couple of times with huge adversities, and are now faced again with yet another stage of it. It is just so challenging to be on the receiving end and be constantly hurt and re-hurt each time they do this. Yes it is illness, but when they can walk and talk and choose what to eat, it really makes you angry that they don't see how bad their behaviour is to other people and those that are closest to them and value them highest.

I guess we each have boundaries that determine when a relationship has been breached or not, but regardless of what those are, when they do cross the line it is painful. You are left wondering why. It can feel like it is all a bad dream and you just want to wake up.

I really feel for you and with all that you have done and all you have stood through. Big Hugs