Ahhhhhhhhh! So my dso is slipping into scary-land. I'm ready to fall apart and I'm extremely worried about his distorted thinking. He's on meds and seeing a therapist which I can only hope will keep this epsode less intense without a suicide attempt.
Just this week he has started to drink again. It's odd to me since he's not drank in months and is handling stress and depressed feelings fairly well. He's also sleeping great. In the past my husband has self medicated with drinking- like to the point of spending many nights sleeping/passed out on the bathroom floor. I've managed pretty well withthis situation in the past because my husband wouldn't drink until the kids were down for the evening and he ignored me so I found a way to do pleasurable things pand ignore him.
This new drinking depressed man is different. Tonight he was angry at me!! He went out of his way to be unkind to me. When I called him out on it saying "hey chill out you are being unkind and I would much rather you say nothing than something mean" he responded by laughing at me!! I understand it's the depression talking however I still think he is accountable for his mouth and actions. I believe nobody deserves to be treated ulgy for just being there. I have told him I will not tolerate this behavior, and I still feel like I can and will stick to it. At this point I told him I do not like the way he was treating me and I was going to my sewing room to be alone. Please stay in another area if the house because I think that is best.
He didn't follow me and went to bed. The worse part is he will likely not remember any of this- he was drunk.
Luckily my husband had a therapy session tomorrow afternoon. I am going to email the therapist in the morning to let him know and approach the drink in subject with him. I'm also going to contact his caseworker to discuss detox options and consulting with his p-doc about this development. He doesn't have an appt until the beginning of Feb. Rather over treat than not enough.
As for me I'm just stressed this will escalate onto a major depressive state or he'll continue to treat me poorly and I will have to resort to following thur with my hardass/ tough love approach. Thank the maker and my doctor for my sleeping RX for nights like this or I would never sleep at all.
Any thoughts? Insight? I fully realize I may be fluffing how I deal with this however I just cannot and will not put my own feelings in hold and handle unkind, cruel, hateful treatment.
Thanks for reading!!!!
Just this week he has started to drink again. It's odd to me since he's not drank in months and is handling stress and depressed feelings fairly well. He's also sleeping great. In the past my husband has self medicated with drinking- like to the point of spending many nights sleeping/passed out on the bathroom floor. I've managed pretty well withthis situation in the past because my husband wouldn't drink until the kids were down for the evening and he ignored me so I found a way to do pleasurable things pand ignore him.
This new drinking depressed man is different. Tonight he was angry at me!! He went out of his way to be unkind to me. When I called him out on it saying "hey chill out you are being unkind and I would much rather you say nothing than something mean" he responded by laughing at me!! I understand it's the depression talking however I still think he is accountable for his mouth and actions. I believe nobody deserves to be treated ulgy for just being there. I have told him I will not tolerate this behavior, and I still feel like I can and will stick to it. At this point I told him I do not like the way he was treating me and I was going to my sewing room to be alone. Please stay in another area if the house because I think that is best.
He didn't follow me and went to bed. The worse part is he will likely not remember any of this- he was drunk.
Luckily my husband had a therapy session tomorrow afternoon. I am going to email the therapist in the morning to let him know and approach the drink in subject with him. I'm also going to contact his caseworker to discuss detox options and consulting with his p-doc about this development. He doesn't have an appt until the beginning of Feb. Rather over treat than not enough.
As for me I'm just stressed this will escalate onto a major depressive state or he'll continue to treat me poorly and I will have to resort to following thur with my hardass/ tough love approach. Thank the maker and my doctor for my sleeping RX for nights like this or I would never sleep at all.
Any thoughts? Insight? I fully realize I may be fluffing how I deal with this however I just cannot and will not put my own feelings in hold and handle unkind, cruel, hateful treatment.
Thanks for reading!!!!




