After 3 months of no contact I broke it last night by sending an email to my XDBF. I was up late and had a few to drink and sent a kind of nasty email. To my surprise he replied at first with rude remarks like, "I'd rather be a drunk than be with you." After going back and forth on email his last one said, "okay get over me and find a guy that deserves you." I have mixed emotions right now. I'm sad and glad that he said that if it makes any sense. Sad that he wants me to move on but glad because maybe finally I got the closure I needed. This illness is a horrible thing I thought maybe he would come back but now I guess I truly do have to move on.




