I'm not sure yet how i feel about it but i started taking lexapro last week. I have noticed many horrible things, thoughts, feelings, anxiety as well. I cant handle things anymore, its all piled on..there is no way out, no hope, empty, alone, worthless. I have tried holding things together for 7 months now as a fallout spouse, now it seems to me i have joined the other side. I've fought with the thoughts and feelings for months, finally got some help, and for now i am taking the medication..how long i dont know. I have no real hope of it changing anything for me, to make me feel anything besides pain, there is no hope of that for me anymore. I have felt like water being sucked down the drain for months now, nothing but hurt and pain left. I keep going, doing all the things expected of me, raise my kids, keep my house, get out of bed..dont want to do any of it. The only thing i hope to get out of this medicaiton is to dull the pain, which it wont do, but maybe i will no longer obsess about it every day and if i'm not thinking of him constantly, maybe i will be able to move on. I know its only been 7 months, not a life time, but i can not remember what it was like to be happy, cant even begin to think that i will ever feel it again, seems like forever.




