i think i finally moved on.....1st time that i really felt like i have MOVED ON> i still sometimes think of happy memories with J....but i am ok. i am
dating T still (a year may 1st) AND i have someone else interested in me....
i was out a few weeks ago with a ton of friends and i had my groove back and i actually enjoyed being me.....i LOVED being me and had a FABULOUS night.
NOW....a few nights ago...i woke up and i was upset.....because i had this dream and i could not remember J's
face, the sound of his voice or his touch....it bugged me...but it didn't bug all at the same time. i didn't dwell on it....i just went about my business. it was weird because i have not seen him, ran into him or thought about him in ages...well, some good memories pop up here and there...but you can't get rid of memories. but i am always in tune with him on some level.....
SOOOOOOOO....
last night i was enjoying my 4 mile walk/run with my friend and she said...isn't that where J lives. i said yes and she told me that he is moving....a job offer and she could not remember if it was 3 to 4 hours away or out of state. AND i was ok....i thought...wow...good for him. his job is the ONLY thing in his life that he is confident in, the ONLY thing that makes him get up in the morning....the ONLY thing that keeps him somewhat stable. i didn't feel much of anything...not a sudden loss or a sadness or anything....just good wishes towards him...and that was nice to be able to feel that.
i know i have alot more work to do on me.....tons more work....but i think that we always/or constantly need to work on ourselves. today i am sitting here typing this....and i think to myself....people come into our life for a reason or a season.....
J was for a reason (i needed to fix ME and to grow as a person)
T is for a season (i don't see this being a forever relationship)
and who knows...but i hope the next one is the FOREVER boy!!!!
i was out a few weeks ago with a ton of friends and i had my groove back and i actually enjoyed being me.....i LOVED being me and had a FABULOUS night.
NOW....a few nights ago...i woke up and i was upset.....because i had this dream and i could not remember J's
face, the sound of his voice or his touch....it bugged me...but it didn't bug all at the same time. i didn't dwell on it....i just went about my business. it was weird because i have not seen him, ran into him or thought about him in ages...well, some good memories pop up here and there...but you can't get rid of memories. but i am always in tune with him on some level.....
SOOOOOOOO....
last night i was enjoying my 4 mile walk/run with my friend and she said...isn't that where J lives. i said yes and she told me that he is moving....a job offer and she could not remember if it was 3 to 4 hours away or out of state. AND i was ok....i thought...wow...good for him. his job is the ONLY thing in his life that he is confident in, the ONLY thing that makes him get up in the morning....the ONLY thing that keeps him somewhat stable. i didn't feel much of anything...not a sudden loss or a sadness or anything....just good wishes towards him...and that was nice to be able to feel that.
i know i have alot more work to do on me.....tons more work....but i think that we always/or constantly need to work on ourselves. today i am sitting here typing this....and i think to myself....people come into our life for a reason or a season.....
J was for a reason (i needed to fix ME and to grow as a person)
T is for a season (i don't see this being a forever relationship)
and who knows...but i hope the next one is the FOREVER boy!!!!




