DH was housestitting last night. I didn't see or talk w/him yesterdya but I had left a letter that included some heartfelt stuff about our marriage and then talked about how I wasn't asking him to believe any of it, but I was asking him to slow down and take time apart. That bringing up his issues 3.5 weeks and going straight to divorce court was too quick. that divorce was brutal and not something to rush into. He also is waiting on medical test results, started taking homeopath remedy and is going to the neuro this Wed. because he has a benign brain tumor that he hasn't had scanned in 3.5 years and some of his crazy personality symptoms are inlign with an indication that this cyst might have grown. In my letter i tried to establish a boundry that I couldn't and wouldn't talk about huge major decisions before we had all these physical results. I told him I knew he didn't believe he had any problems, but I felt that there was something physical causing him great emotional pain.
Today DH texts me that he wants to text and is there anytime today that I can meet him. I'm scared out of my mind about how I'm going to be hurt even more. I made it clear that I wouldn't talk about this and now he wants to talk. Of course I'd like to beleive something I said in the letter got through to him or that being basically alone the last 4 days showed him what alone is like and he's going to say something I'd want to hear at this talk in 1.15 hours away. I am just petrified of how he's going to hurt me more. Can anyone say something to make me feel better and less scared walking into this?
Today DH texts me that he wants to text and is there anytime today that I can meet him. I'm scared out of my mind about how I'm going to be hurt even more. I made it clear that I wouldn't talk about this and now he wants to talk. Of course I'd like to beleive something I said in the letter got through to him or that being basically alone the last 4 days showed him what alone is like and he's going to say something I'd want to hear at this talk in 1.15 hours away. I am just petrified of how he's going to hurt me more. Can anyone say something to make me feel better and less scared walking into this?




