Analysis paralysis: it's where I find myself lately.
Read 5 books on depression, going to therapy to understand things better, go to this chatroom, talk to friends about my relationship, sending emails and texts sharing new found knowledge with now separated husband..........
Blah! Blah! Blah!
I'm in paralysis. I feel as if I am just analyzing the varying depths of what the PROBLEM is, and very little of all of this effort is put in action for a SOLUTION.
Endless loop. I guess I choose this loop....(hard pill to swallow).
I could just get so +$%$ apathetic and just say to hell with a depressed husband and all of which that entails. I could choose to just move along and never look back and open my world to new experiences filled with joy, rather than constantly obsessing how to cope, better understand or endure my freaking husband's depression and the effect it has had , and still has on me. That would be one solution.
URGH!
But I find myself stuck. Paralysis has settled in. Intellectually getting why I need to change and yet not doing so. Have I now become so trained by my husband's passive aggressive behavior that I am comfortable feeling like I always have my hands tied behind my back? It goes against my nature to play victim......but this paralysis seems entrenched.
Read 5 books on depression, going to therapy to understand things better, go to this chatroom, talk to friends about my relationship, sending emails and texts sharing new found knowledge with now separated husband..........
Blah! Blah! Blah!
I'm in paralysis. I feel as if I am just analyzing the varying depths of what the PROBLEM is, and very little of all of this effort is put in action for a SOLUTION.
Endless loop. I guess I choose this loop....(hard pill to swallow).
I could just get so +$%$ apathetic and just say to hell with a depressed husband and all of which that entails. I could choose to just move along and never look back and open my world to new experiences filled with joy, rather than constantly obsessing how to cope, better understand or endure my freaking husband's depression and the effect it has had , and still has on me. That would be one solution.
URGH!
But I find myself stuck. Paralysis has settled in. Intellectually getting why I need to change and yet not doing so. Have I now become so trained by my husband's passive aggressive behavior that I am comfortable feeling like I always have my hands tied behind my back? It goes against my nature to play victim......but this paralysis seems entrenched.




