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Feb 17 13 7:08 AM
FuFFy & BB. I am actually feeling quite optimistic today. I never thought I would get the both of you responding to me in any way. It’s refreshing and inspiring. To have 2 succesful couples who have dealt with this horrible disease successfully…..I am at a loss for words. I am quite humbles by your presence. Thank you for your input.
-WW
Feb 17 13 7:20 AM
BB: I think my mania was completely chemically induced by my medication. It was during the last leg of my ‘ramp up dosage’ of cymbalta. That’s when my doctor knew I was more than likely to be bipolar. I was responding too well to the medication. I never knew that was an indication that I may be bipolar. I remember I was happy as a “Pig in Sh!t.” Even my wife thought I was the best husband in the world at that time. I was doing chores like a madaman: cleaning the bathroom, the kitchen, finish painting, doing laundry…..but also sleeping with a stripper behind her back.
Feb 17 13 11:01 AM
In terms of me being aware of the diagnosis, no one told me about bi polar disorder. I did some reverse engineering with the questions. My psychiatrist asked some questions that were new. In our sessions I was used to a very specific set of questions. In December he asked me a new set of questions.
· Do I have a new sense of confidence….like can take on more tasks?
· Have I done anything that you would consider out of character for yourself?
· How are your sleeping habits?
Those 3 questions I had to look online and found out they are the questions to ask while investigating if someone was bi polar. That’s how I found out. In my next session I asked my psychiatrist why he asked those questions. he said I was responding to the medication too quickly. This can be an indication me being bi polar, and to continue with medication, and my daily mood/feeling journal.
This is how I realized my possible diagnosis. It seems to have been confirmed with my introduction of a mood stabilizer: Lamictal. I am just about at my normal middle. I just have been napping a lot more lately. 1 hr/day, but my mood is stable.
Much of my new posts were…..lack of a better phrase, edited/censored. So your perception of my honesty is correct. Ly initial posting were brutally honest. When I discovered the possibility of my wife finding these posts, I was trying to not mention about the OW. I made a choice to stay on this forum, so talking about the OW could not be avoided.
I wonder if I should restore the older thread. At this point, I don’t think it will make a difference.
What do any of you think?
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Feb 22 13 3:57 AM
I had therapy and a session with psychiatrist:
It is official from my psychiatrist: I am Bi Polar II. It took 1 year to diagnose because of how mild my manic state is appearing. i still have the crazy manic symptoms. They are just harder to read initially. the first sign was my depression. It is very unusual for someone my age to be in a crying fetal position
***tip for bi polar folks***
The time of day for medication is a huge factor in its effectiveness against this disease. I was starting to get this level of fogginess intermittently throughout the day. In addition I was waking up at all hours of the night without any reason. We are moving my mood stabilizer to just the day, and one other medication to 5pm.
So it looks like this for me
6:00am
· 60mg cymbalta · 100mg lamictal
5:00pm · 5mg abilify
9:00pm
· Crestor (for cholesterol)
Hopefully this will get rid of that nagging fogginess that comes on & off during the day. In addition finally may get a good night’s rest.
After speaking with my therapist I have a huge decision to do………..
Feb 22 13 6:59 AM
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Feb 22 13 10:51 PM
I am on 4 different type of medication. He might be right. I faithfully have been waking up at 2 and at 4. I told my doctor yesterday, and he said to take abilify at 5:00pm this should help with my sleeplessness. I was more worried about my fogginess throughout the day. Removing medication is the worst thing to do. I seen so many bad issues with people stopping medication. I will not become another one of those stories.
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Feb 27 13 11:13 AM
Done:
No you do not have to “walk on eggshells” with me. I am recovering from depression. Currently I am not depressed so you do not have to worry. Trust me, you are not being blunt by any means. I have actually been thinking about separation for several years now. I knew I was depressed to which I was cognoscente. I wasn’t completely sure whether my depression had any mental affect on my feelings for my wife. I am quite surprised that my mental clarity had not changed back and re-introduces my feelings back for my wife. This is not my wife’s fault by any means, but I can no longer ignore her need for intimacy and a child.
Everyone has told me to be patient. When she keeps……err jumping my bones, and incessantly talking about having kids and going out on fmla, I have to put my foot down. We have no children, so time to have children is running out for her, and I want to be sensitive to what she wants to do as well.
This is where I am at. I have a lot to think about in the next few weeks.
Thank you for reading my situation. I appreciate any feedback you give me.
Feb 28 13 8:39 PM
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