Hi, I have been with my partner almost 8 years.. We did have a year split 3 years ago... again due to his D. I started to move on with my life... and he pretty much chased me down for a year. We moved together... and within weeks I notice he was withdrawing from me... I would ask, he just brushed it off as no big deal... Over the next months, I noticed he was always tired, never wanted to go anywhere, and he just worked, watch tv , video games, and then sleep. occasionally we we out to dinner, but that was it. I grew more and more frustrated, thinking it was me, he didn't love me anymore, maybe he met someone else, my mind was racing constantly... I would ask him about once a month if we could talk, he would avoid all conversations, many times starting a fight over something stupid..I felt I was in the dark about his feelings... Many times in the last year I said I feel like a roommate, and if he is not happy maybe we should separate... About 6 months ago, he realized I about had it, and he agreed to counseling... He went every week for about 3 months, never wanting to talk about it afterwards...I also saw he was getting angrier, which was not the norm... i suggested maybe he should go on meds... he goes and gets Zoloft... i ask him please don't go over 100ml, it is supposed to take the edge off, not make you into a zombie... he doc keeps upping his dosage, In Dec, he says on a normal day, hey, I'm moving out , we talked about this before, and I cant keep hurting you like this... I was floored.... I been in tears ever since... i hear from him occasionally... He is still at 125 ml, going to a different counselor... I don't get, how can one throw away our years with one swoop.? I feel totally lost, cry daily, this pain i feel seems to get worse by the day... When we speak, he says he is numb, he know he loves me, but its buried. and he needs to fix himself first, because he no good to anyone... He has his own place, I know there is no one else, he does the same routine, he looks lost, sad, but indifferent all in 20 min... Help,, I feel in limbo... I don't know how to handle this anymore, my heart is just shattered.... I dont think he would have left, had he not been on meds...




