After the email where I was unceremoniously dumped, and a succession of texts on my behalf, I was 7 days in to non communication ... I was doing well on that front, personally not so great but ... And then Sunday night caught up with me and I text. It was silly really. I just sent a picture. Of course no response. Now I feel stupid, angry with myself, and back to square one. It didn't help that I bumped into his friends on Saturday afternoon in my local shop ... they were lovely to me, but we had a rather awkward conversation. I'm not sure they really know what's going on, and I didn't know what to say. I still feel like I've been physically beaten and am waiting to come out of this nightmare, for him to call me and for this to be OK. I think that this hope is all that is getting me through, the disbelief that he could genuinely want to be acting this way. The hope that the real person will 'wake up' ...




