Hello. It's been a while since I've posted on here, but I feel like I really need to talk to someone right now. My ex said that we should reconnect towards the end of the summer, saying that more time and distance are the best things for us right now. Now that the summer is winding down, I'm feeling emotions that I didn't expect to feel. The most prominent is anger. I spent most of my day today crying and feeling angry about everything that has happened. I know that I am enough and that I am strong enough to truly love someone, and to put in the work on a relationship. I am patient, accepting, and kind, and any man would be lucky to have me in their life. It is for that reason why I can't help but feel angry that he gave up on us so easily, especially when we were at the counselor's office in order to get help on our communication. I think that a lot of his relationship issues stem from having neglectful parents and being sexually assaulted as a child; if he is depressed, I think they stem from those issues and not from any sort of medical condition. I've read how being abused like that makes you not want to be vulnerable, to be afraid of intimacy, and to not trust in a relationship; I did as much as I could at the time to be as supportive as I knew how to be, and I feel like I did well. I don't like the fact that he just gave up on us like it was nothing, and he cast me aside like the time that I invested meant nothing. It makes me think of him as a coward, but nothing good will come of me saying that to him. If I'm going to see him soon (and that's only if he feels ready), I don't want to feel like this. I want to be able to reconcile and accept my emotions, to be gracious and calm like I know I need to be. But another part of me feels like he deserves to see this anger, he deserves to know how badly he hurt me and how stupid I think he is for his decision. Overall, I do feel better and I am able to feel like I can be more emotionally understanding, but days like today make me feel like I haven't made much progress at all. How do you let go of the anger, and have you ever been able to properly convey it with the person who hurt you?




