I don't get it. He bit my head off about something stupid and told me he was sick of hearing about my migraines. His airfare shiner was causing it. He over reacted on our way to the state fair and really laid into me- infront of his 5 yr old son. Meanwhile, he is overly sweet with his son. After about 15 minutes he asked if I was going to be in a bad mood all day? Wtf?!? I told him he shouldnt have yelled at me like that and i was trying to not get mad now. I had shut down and kept telling myself this is the depression. We get to the fair and we are pointing this out to his son - I get told if could sound more happy. Again wtf?!? I told him to leave me alone, he is not in charge of what I feel. He made some nasty comment but about 5 minutes later was trying to include me in the conversation.
His son had a great time and I made a big deal out of every ride he went on and took great pics of them. It was a fun but long day. Through out the day, he was teasing me. Now being in a relationship with a DSO there isn't the offset of love and affection shown to offset what would be fun teasing. It's like you are waiting for crumbs from their table when you used to be at their feast. Those crumbs rarely come.
On the ride home he says his son had a good time, he had a good time but I didn't . It seemed I was aggregated at times. What??? This man was only smiles when speaking with or in eye contact of his child. He complained of the money spent and when was getting tired, and he was starving- to me. One time he told me again - can you seem like you are enjoying yourself .we had been there about 4 hours and I said my feet were starting to hurt. It's like nothing I can do is right or enough. I need to get over things, let things go and I am too sensitive. I asked for an apology for biting my head off- he said he was sorry but he got so angry.
Once home, his son long asleep, I tell him he has me to my breaking point. I asked him if he has any idea of what it's like living with him like this. He said he was just trying to have some fun with me. I told him that without the love and affection the "fun" is just picking on me and only fun for him.
He told me he was sorry and didn't know what I was talking about.
I just don't get it. Seeing friends today and so looking forward to it. Hope everyone has a good day- looks gorgeous out.
His son had a great time and I made a big deal out of every ride he went on and took great pics of them. It was a fun but long day. Through out the day, he was teasing me. Now being in a relationship with a DSO there isn't the offset of love and affection shown to offset what would be fun teasing. It's like you are waiting for crumbs from their table when you used to be at their feast. Those crumbs rarely come.
On the ride home he says his son had a good time, he had a good time but I didn't . It seemed I was aggregated at times. What??? This man was only smiles when speaking with or in eye contact of his child. He complained of the money spent and when was getting tired, and he was starving- to me. One time he told me again - can you seem like you are enjoying yourself .we had been there about 4 hours and I said my feet were starting to hurt. It's like nothing I can do is right or enough. I need to get over things, let things go and I am too sensitive. I asked for an apology for biting my head off- he said he was sorry but he got so angry.
Once home, his son long asleep, I tell him he has me to my breaking point. I asked him if he has any idea of what it's like living with him like this. He said he was just trying to have some fun with me. I told him that without the love and affection the "fun" is just picking on me and only fun for him.
He told me he was sorry and didn't know what I was talking about.
I just don't get it. Seeing friends today and so looking forward to it. Hope everyone has a good day- looks gorgeous out.




