So the other day I begged him to take me back and he got really mad, saying he wouldn't talk to me ever if I brought it up again- that he is so stressed from his new job and he isn't sleeping correctly. But there are some things that he did say....
1. He doesn't think he loves me and that with being treated for depression those feelings won't come back- he said it will never happen, he doesn't want to give me any hope.
2. He said that this is hard for him too, that I wasn't the only one emotionally invested in the relationship- uhhhh, this doesn't make sense because if he was emotionally invested he wouldn't have done it, meaning he knows underneath he really still does love me he just can't connect because of the depression?
3. That he hadn't been happy since the beginning of the year- when there are things that prove otherwise- like him coming down to see me in between classes and bought me roses and jewelry.
4. The he misses me but not the way I want him to- uhhhh sure? Don't know what to make of this.
5. I asked him if he was sure that it was us he was unhappy with, that wasn't it his life- and he said yeah that it was his life, that's why he got a new job- umm and he still won't give me another chance, even those I told him I was different and not as self depreciating. That I should have ended it in his previous episode of D where he had an emotional affair. He wouldnt get help then and he seemed to snap out of it himself (or maybe he didnt and has dysthymia) I told him that is what you do for people you love. Ugh.
6. To not tell him that he doesn't care because he is trying really hard to make the friendship work.
denial much?it makes me angry and it doesn't make any sense. Clearly underneath the depression he still has feelings for me. He won't talk to his family, and tell them everything because she has never "put his eggs all in one basket" and they won't tell him his reasoning is fishy, no one but me.
Everyone around me in my family says that he needs to grow up and get treated. He has issues with the fact that I was graduating and possibly getting a better job than him when he felt like he couldn't support me before- he isn't gonna ever find someone that compares to me and everything I did for him. I just know he is gonna come back once he wakes up. Why is he being this way? Ugh
1. He doesn't think he loves me and that with being treated for depression those feelings won't come back- he said it will never happen, he doesn't want to give me any hope.
2. He said that this is hard for him too, that I wasn't the only one emotionally invested in the relationship- uhhhh, this doesn't make sense because if he was emotionally invested he wouldn't have done it, meaning he knows underneath he really still does love me he just can't connect because of the depression?
3. That he hadn't been happy since the beginning of the year- when there are things that prove otherwise- like him coming down to see me in between classes and bought me roses and jewelry.
4. The he misses me but not the way I want him to- uhhhh sure? Don't know what to make of this.
5. I asked him if he was sure that it was us he was unhappy with, that wasn't it his life- and he said yeah that it was his life, that's why he got a new job- umm and he still won't give me another chance, even those I told him I was different and not as self depreciating. That I should have ended it in his previous episode of D where he had an emotional affair. He wouldnt get help then and he seemed to snap out of it himself (or maybe he didnt and has dysthymia) I told him that is what you do for people you love. Ugh.
6. To not tell him that he doesn't care because he is trying really hard to make the friendship work.
denial much?it makes me angry and it doesn't make any sense. Clearly underneath the depression he still has feelings for me. He won't talk to his family, and tell them everything because she has never "put his eggs all in one basket" and they won't tell him his reasoning is fishy, no one but me.
Everyone around me in my family says that he needs to grow up and get treated. He has issues with the fact that I was graduating and possibly getting a better job than him when he felt like he couldn't support me before- he isn't gonna ever find someone that compares to me and everything I did for him. I just know he is gonna come back once he wakes up. Why is he being this way? Ugh




